Lindsay M

LINDSAY’S STORY

As mothers we experience anxiety with birth and what comes after delivery. We often forget about ourselves and are unsuspecting of what postpartum life will be like. I am so thankful to have met Lindsay in the midst of her journey and that she allowed me to place her in front of my lens, sharing her heart, journey of faith, and healing. Read her testimony below.

“I’ve struggled with fear for many years. A heart condition combined with postpartum depression sent me into the deepest, darkest hole I had ever experienced. I became pregnant with twins in 2014. It was a huge surprise and it came with a lot of mixed feelings. The timing was completely off and it was not the way I saw my life going. I became very sick right away and it made life difficult. Because of the extra stress and blood volume my heart began to act up early on as well. The depression began to set in and I became very isolated and lonely. I prayed constantly for God to heal me and send me the friends and support I thought I needed. Because of my SVT, the twins were born via c section 6 weeks early, per the doctor’s request. We ended up in the NICU for a little over 4 weeks, which did not help my emotional state whatsoever. It was a really difficult, tumultuous time for my family. The pain was deep in many ways and I was still struggling with fear and heavy depression. 

At home I was overwhelmed, lonely, and having panic attacks constantly. I never wanted to leave the house. Through a course of events, I was shown Gods love for me in a way I could not deny. It was at that moment I knew He had my back. I began to seek out help through counseling and finally after exhausting what I thought was every natural and pharmaceutical drug possible, I found something that helped. I began reading a daily devotional that my mom had given me. There was a particular part about healing and being free from the fear of death. I read it and felt a heaviness lift! Through all of this I have found my story is not the only one like this. It has given me a heart and depth of perception I did not have before. I learned that God will never ever let me fall, that He is a good, good God, and He uses it all for his glory, because really, that’s what it’s all about. “

“My favorite calling in life, by far, is being a mom.”  Lindsay M

2017-03-08T12:36:50+00:00