Have you ever looked back and realized you were never truly alone. Along the way, there are those who are placed right where you needed them. Kameron shares how she came to realize how faith followed her. Read all about it below.
I am a strong believer that without the darkness, we would never have an appreciation or desire to see the beauty in the stars. As a 90’s child, I grew up privileged. I lived in a beautiful home, participated in more sports than I can honestly recall, had involved parents, and didn’t go with an unmet need or want.
Darkness crept into my life in the form of trauma at a young age and manifested in an eight-year battle with anorexia nervosa. This darkness was particularly ugly, cruel, and near-fatal…a darkness I wouldn’t wish upon a single soul. At twelve years old, I didn’t have much of a concept of who God was or that he had a vision and purpose for my life. Now, however, I am thoroughly convinced that God has been in relentless pursuit of my heart from day one. He saw my darkness and he walked with me through it.
A few months ago, I moved into my first home with my nearly two-year old son. One evening after he had gone to bed, I found myself thinking about my darkness. The struggles I faced “too young,” the battle I nearly lost with my own life, and raising a beautiful little boy as a single mother. As I sat I became increasingly overwhelmed. I felt God’s presence in that moment.
Over the next several minutes, I found myself taking a good, introspective look at my darkness. The more I tried to look for those shadowed situations and memories, the more I came to the realization that God had continued to pursue me in every single facet of my darkness. RELENTLESSLY.
I had issues with my self-image. But God had pursued me using a team of doctors, dietitians, and counselors to help me walk in recovery from anorexia.
I was lacking understanding of who God is. But God pursued me through Campus Life directors, youth leaders, mentors, and good friends who have encouraged my journey in Christ.
I was struggling with shame in being a single mother. But God pursued me using a village of family and friends to encourage me and love my child well.
I was unhappy at my job after graduation from college. But God pursued me by placing a new opportunity in my path and providing me with supportive co-workers and a work environment that I am passionate about.
I was struggling with depression and anxiety. But God pursued me by connecting me with support through counseling, church, mentorship, and friends.
I was unsuccessfully searching for a place for my son and I to call home. But God pursued me by placing a perfect opportunity for a home within the cost amount I could afford.
As my time of reflection was coming to a close, I realized that in all of these times of darkness, God provided me with exactly what I needed at the time to bring me through the darkness. If my testimony speaks for any one thing, I truly hope that it sends a resounding message that if you stand in faith even when you are having the hardest time of your life, God will continue to pursue you relentlessly…. Because He is THAT GOOD.
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or
sword?36 As it is written:“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[a]
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
“Why would I fear the future? For I am being pursued only by your goodness and unfailing love” Psalm 23:6 (Pocket Fuel Daily Devotional)